Venter
hi
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You
Hey
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Venter
how are you?
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You
Very well thank you. How are you doing?
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Venter
eh, i'm ok
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glad to hear you are doing well though
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You
What's happening?
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Venter
so much haha
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i'm a mess
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my life is a mess
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biggest thing is that a 4 and a half year relationship ended back in may. bad break up. lots of anger and bitterness on both sides. it devastated
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me
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now it's the holidays and i'm all alone for the first time ever. no family, no friends
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You
I'm sorry to hear that. End of relationships is always a tough expereince no doubt
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But how come no family..?
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Venter
they aren't around here
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and i couldn't travel for the holidays
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You
And no friends at all?
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Venter
not really, no
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they moved away
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or we've grown apart
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i mean, i know some people
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but i wouldn't say they're my friends. more like acquaintances
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You
I see..
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Venter
i guess the biggest thing is deep down i keep thinking my ex is going to come back
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and i need to find a way to let go of that
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You
why do you feel that way?
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Venter
which way?
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that she'll come back or that i need to let go of it?
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You
Why do you feel that she will come back?
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Venter
i don't know... cause i was good for her. i have high value
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i know she's not over it either. we haven't interacted much since the split, but every time we did it was clear she's still angry, bitter
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there's emotions there. she's still invested
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it seems like she tries to put on a good face and act like she's ok, but it doesn't take much for her to lash out or let that facade fall away
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You
and what about you...you think you are able to move on?
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Venter
well, she also seems very determined to move on. i guess for her it will be a question of whether her emotions or her mind prevails
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so far, it seems like her mind is winning
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i don't have a choice but to move on. i won't ask her to come back
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i'm not going to sit around waiting for her the rest of my life
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You
Seems fair
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So what is your bigger concern right now...that you dont have companionship or that you don't have any social circle at all?
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Venter
you know, i'm not sure
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i'm in my mid 30's
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having friends kind of becomes different at that point
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if i had to pick one or the other, i'd rather have a happy, healthy relationship
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however, a social circle can help in finding someone
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You
Agreed..a healthy relationship is very important, but one shouldn't discount the value of friends either...
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Venter
maybe it's just me
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i don't like a lot of people i meet
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people can be assholes
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You
I think I can relate as we seem to have a few things in common...
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Being a man in my early 30's and having gone through the pain of heartbreak myself, I learned the value of having few close supportive friends who helped me though my struggle ( and still do)
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The reality is, a romantic relationship is not - and cannot - be an end all, be all situation
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Venter
yeah, that part bums me out. i feel let down by a lot of people in my life this year. first my ex for treating me like she did and then leaving me
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You
We men need variety and significance in our lives
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Venter
and then everyone else. they all knew how hard of a time i was having and didn't seem to care all that much
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some people would listen a bit when it was convenient for them and then say "just get over it"
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but no one tried to do anything for me. no one said "dude, we're taking you out tonight and having fun" or anything like that
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You
Sounds like you need Real friends...brothers who are on the same page..
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Venter
i don't know. maybe i'm expecting too much of people
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i don't think so though. i would do that for the "friends" i have
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You
So let me ask you this...
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Venter
i'm a pretty kind and giving person. feels like maybe i attract selfish people as a result
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You
..you think this holiday season would be a good time to re-start a new life with new friends and new hobbies/activities..?
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Venter
yeah, definitely
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i'm ready man
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i've been trying
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i want to hit the 'reset' button so bad. i just can't find the damn thing. if i could i would push it
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You
The thing about a shitty past is, that it is...the past..
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Venter
honestly, a big thing to me is i just want to be able to enjoy the things i used to
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video games, movies, going out to eat, shopping
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i'm a simple dude
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i loved doing all those things
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You
so why don;t you..?
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Venter
well, i try. my mind is such a mess i can't focus
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i can play a video game for like 10 mins before i turn it off
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Venter
part of it is i feel like i'm wasting time. i'm not happy with my life so i shouldn't be sitting around playing video games
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there's some validity to that, but it's also kind of shitty because i legitimately LOVE video games
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You
I know exactly what you are saying, it's hard to re-gain the same motivation for life after a painful expereince...
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..but tell me this...how will your life look if you stayed in your little cocoon of despair..? If you did not push yourself outside your comfort zone?
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Venter
no, you're right
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i need to find myself again
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i've been exercising and eating well. that's a change for me and it feels good
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You
And for sure...it will take some time
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Venter
another two months and i'll be in the best shape i ever have been in
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which is awesome
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You
and a cause for celebration as well..
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Venter
but i feel like i don't need to completely reinvent myself
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i should be able to enjoy the things i've enjoyed my whole life
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You
If that is what gives you satisfaction then yes..do that
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Venter
a little bit of old and a little bit of new
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You
There you go man
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Venter
i don't know. i have issues i guess
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i've never been good with women
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i suspect women don't find me very attractive
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You
I'm sorry if I sound harsh or a bit rude....
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...but that's a bunch of bull
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Venter
you know, everyone says that
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You
Do you have any idea HOW many guys out there think that way?
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Venter
but women never show any interest in me
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and i get rejected a lot
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You
Here's a secret for ya...
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Being good with women is a skill...that can be learned
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Venter
i'm awful with them generally haha
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You
Well, you did get at least one girl to stay with you for over 4 years didn't you?
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Venter
yes
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i know how to be a boyfriend
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i was good at that
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honestly
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i'm just awful at attracting them
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it's not often a woman flirts with me or shows any kind of interest
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i'll tell you what though, i have off the next 4 days. i'm going to try to spend some significant time playing some video games. i have a ton that i bought that are still in the shrink-wrap. would love to dig into one of them and enjoy it
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You
Is that your excuse for not going out and meeting people?
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Venter
playing video games?
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You
yes
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Venter
no
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i go out a lot dude
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You
Maybe its an escape from reality
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Venter
i was just out last night
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truthfully i don't want to spend any more money until i get paid next week
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lol
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things are tight right now
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You
I'd like to share some advice with you that I myself got recently...
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...and it's the most pleasant, but i found it very helpful, and i hope you do as well...
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not the most pleasant i mean
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Venter
shoot
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You
The reality is..you are a man in his mid 30's...
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perhaps you desire a family of your own one day, perhaps you don't. maybe you just want a loving relationship...
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Venter
yeah, no kids
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You
But bottom line...you can't afford to dick around as the 20's are gone
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Venter
i agree with all of that
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You
So yes...video games are a nice escape for a little while, but they are not what makes a man attracive
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Venter
but i also can't go out and spend money i don't have
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You
What makes a man attractive to any woman is Ambition, Big goals, the Drive and the passion to succeed at something in life
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Venter
yeah, i'm good there. i'm successful, have a good career
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You
and one doesnt have to spend money to be a successful person
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Venter
no of course not
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but it's the end of december. people aren't just out hanging around in parks. where am i going to go to meet people without spending money?
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You
It doesn't have to be right away...but find groups of like minded people on meetup.com or even your local atheltics club
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Venter
now we're on the same page
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You
Also, I would like to share a realy good book with you that will help you in developing a kickass mindset
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Venter
me laying low this weekend and trying to enjoy some video games for the first time in 7 months is not a setback
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Venter
or me avoiding anything
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You
I would highly recommend investing in this book
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And yes...if video games get your juices flowing then by all means, take some time to enjoy it. All i'm saying is, don't make it your entire life
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Venter
no, i've never made it my whole life
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always a healthy balance
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but always something i've enjoyed a lot
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ok, i'll check the book at
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You
So I suppose we have a solid gameplan for the holiday blues then eh?
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Venter
well, i'm just going to try to stay busy and think positive
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make an attempt to enjoy some of my hobbies
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You
Right on!
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Venter
get my exercise in each day
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just make the best of it
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i just want to go back to being happy
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i was the happiest guy i know for years
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and most of it came from me. from myself
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the past year has been rough on me. i've lost a lot, beyond the girlfriend
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and i think it's just taken all my passion away. i want to get it back
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You
I know the feeling man
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But i also know that the feeling of getting back up again after being knocked down is marvellous
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Venter
and once i'm feeling good and read it won't be hard to meet women
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i've messed around on dating sites and met quite a few
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i'm just not ready for all of that yet
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i need to be happy with me and my new life alone first
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then i can add someone to it
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You
That's what I'm talking about!
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Venter
yes
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this has been good for me
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thank you
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You
You bet! Good luck man
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Venter
thanks
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good luck to you too
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merry christmas
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You
Cheers!